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My Terms

Did you ever make a list of qualities your future spouse had to have in order for you to marry him? I never actually wrote out a list, but I had one. I had my whole life planned out at 18. I was going to get married at 21 years old. Have my first child at 24. I would have a boy and a girl. I would teach for a little while and then move to the district office and write curriculum. We would live in Southern California by family and friends. I had terms. And God didn't listen.

Have you ever stepped into something and said, "Nope. This does not fit my terms so it must not be for me." We give our God our list of terms and tell him to sign on the dotted line. No room for his plan here. His plan is my plan. I mean, it placed those desires in my heart right (Psalm 37:4)?

'For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'
Jeremiah 29:11

We like to know God has a plan for our life. It brings us peace in the unknown. We get confused though. We know he has a plan but when that plan does not fit our terms, we assume its not for us and its not from him.

It's time we crumble up our lists of demands and throw it in the trash; set it on fire.

Does he have a plan for each and everyone of us? Absolutely. Does he place desires in our hearts? Sure. Does the plan always work out according to our list of qualifications? Almost never.

I did get married but had to go through some challenging junk with my husband before walking down the aisle. At 24. I did have kids: three boys. I didn't start having them until I was 28. I taught for a little bit but never made it to the district office. I also didn't stay in California. And you know what? I absolutely hands-down know he orchestrated it all. Every single step.

I fought him hard on so much. I made the journey so much more difficult than it needed to me all because he didn't meet my terms. I have learned that it's okay to have lists, but you have to be flexible. We have to let life play out. We are so tight-fisted holding onto to that list of terms that we miss God. We miss his story for our lives making the journey tough to get through.

God doesn't play on our terms. He doesn't follow our rules. Life isn't full in that space. It's boxed in and loses its luster. Life happens in the space outside the lines; outside our terms. Let go a little bit and trust that he actually does have your best interest at heart. He knows you and what you need better than you know yourself. He was the one who created you. Trust him to write your story. Let go. Set them on fire if you need to. Throw the terms away. It's time to start living.

Love & Blessings,
Meg

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