The Fish Tank

Sometimes it's just too hard. This whole mommin', dream chasing, goal making, identity finding life is hard. Things don't just happen. I wish they did. I wish we could be like Aladdin and have our three wishes granted with the rub of a lamp. Or maybe I don't. I'm not sure. What I do know is this whole life thing can feel weighty. The unknown scary. I know the verses. I can speak the Christianese. His yoke is easy. His burden is light. (Matthew 11:30). I will face trials but should remain joyful. (James 1:2) I shouldn't fear for He is with me. (Isaiah 41:10) I got the words. I know the Scripture. But life man, it can be hard. My boys were in and out of the house. Sweaty little faces coming back in for water and snacks rushing back out so they wouldn't miss a thing with their friends in the park. The house was quiet when they'd spill outside. My services not really needed or wanted in that moment. I gave up my life for them. My identity changed...

I recently had a friend send me a link to an author's Facebook live. The topic was on dreams; the dreams we have and how to attain them. It's not a dream. It's a goal. BAM! Rachel Holis explained that dreams live in this far off unattainable land. Dreams are something you think about and wish could happen. In order to make dreams a reality, one must transition the verbiage from dream to goal. Whoa! This is SO simple but it was SO eye-opening for me. I can talk all day long about the dreams I have for myself and accomplish nothing but a high count of spoken word for the day. But, the moment I change my dream to a goal I now have something to work towards. I have talked about my dreams A LOT for the past three years. I talked about them with friends, my husband, and even wrote about them a time or two. It wasn't until the end of the summer that I finally transitioned my dreams to goals. And let me just tell you, that was kind of scary. I think we like to liv...