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I Am Me

I am beautiful.
I am smart.
I am creative.
I am stubborn.
I am funny.
I am emotional.
I am passionate.
I am determined.
I am a daughter of the King.
I am saved by grace.
I am love.
I am full of chaos.
I am His.

"Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out,
you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared
before I’d even lived one day."
Psalm 139: 14-16

Have you ever let these verses sink in; really truly allow them to penetrate your soul and very being? I have heard, said, and written about these verses multiple times. I don't, however, think I have given these precious words much time or value. A few weeks ago I heard God speak loud and clear. The message in my head said, "I cannot be jealous of others' lives because that is not my story." I am not you. I am me created perfectly by the illustrious Creator for an immaculate purpose. I can look to you and envy what you have but why? Even if I had the opportunity to live your life it wouldn't fit. My life, in all its imperfection, is perfect. All the bumps and bruises, joys and triumphs, are quintessentially mine. So, when I am feeling alone and like my life has no meaning while others are living extravagantly I will mediate on Psalm 139 remembering that I cannot envy your life for it is not for me. He has an incredible plan uniquely designed for me and for you.

Love & Blessings,
Megan

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