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Four Walls

I went to the beach with my parents almost every weekend. As I grew, I'd complain about going to the beach again. Crazy right? I remember telling my parents I'd never live anywhere else but close to a coastline. Ha. Never say never. God plopped me smack in the middle of the country. And you know what, if you allow Him to move you, especially out of your comfort zone, He'll knock your socks off.

So, here I sit in the middle of the USofA and I absolutely LOVE it. I love the Texas pride, friendly people who wave when they drive by, the slower pace of life, a community that protects and looks out for one another, and I cannot get enough of the wide open spaces and skies that seem to go on and on forever. I feel like I could run and run and never reach the sky while at the same time, could reach my hand out and touch the velvety blue with puffy white clouds.

We are an up-and-comer city. A lot of development is happening all around me but there are still farms, ranches, pastures, and country roads. As you leave one exit of our neighborhood, you see a pasture straight ahead. There's some big cows that graze there and stare you down. Scott is convinced they don't like him and give him dirty looks when he goes by them on his runs.

I pulled out on this particular day enjoying my view of the vastness praying for a friend in need. She was hurting and has been hurting for awhile. The words that came out of my mouth as I was praying went something like this, "Lord, please get her out of her box. Free her from her the box of pain she's been living in for far too long." I kept driving passing another ranch that I would buy in a heart beat if it ever went on the market. It's one of those tucked away houses with the windy tree-lined driveways. Heaven on earth.

I began to process these two opposing things: wide open spaces and living in a box confined to four walls. So many of us are living confined. It's safe and comfortable and known in those four walls. We feel a sense of control over our lives and enjoy the predictability. Often times, our four walls are comprised of sadness, anxiety, and/or depression but we stay there anyway. We stay there because it's known. We feel safe. We know how to do depressed. If we allow a wall to crumble and let happiness in, we may get hurt or disappointed. If we let the wall come down, we don't know what we may be letting in. That scares us. So, we stay in our four walls chained to what seems like comfort.

We are missing the wide open spaces. We are missing out chance to run free and try and reach the endless skyline. God calls us to a life of abundance (John 10:10). He wants us to be free of our four walls. Free to chase the dreams He has set in our hearts. He wants to bless us exceedingly beyond anything we can imagine (Ephesians 3:20). He can't give us that life if we stay confined to our four walls. We need to step out, slowly, even if it hurts at first. We need to step out even if it's scary or exhausting because eventually we will be running free through the vastness he has waiting for us.

Love & Blessings,
Meg

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