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Monday Musings~Full Circle

I was sitting in church on Sunday for the first time since we had Grady. I love being in church with my children. We sang all the songs I am used to singing and then a song I hadn't heard in months began: You Never Let Go. The last time I heard this song was when I was going through my last miscarriage. It was a popular song during that tumultuous time. I remember crying as a sang that song many times truly believing in all my heart that He didn't let go of me even though I was in despair.

Now, here I sat with my newborn son; this little miracle. I had a flashback moment visualizing the last year and a half and all that we have been through and how He was, and is, with us every single step of the way. I felt His presence so deeply in that moment holding Grady and singing a song that has seen me through many dark moments. Now I was singing the song rejoicing. Now the Lord does not always give us what we want. However, I do know and believe that He NEVER let's go!


Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

Comments

Carly Peters said…
I love this song, it has got me through many hard times as well. It is so true! I'm so happy for you guys. It is nice being out of the valley having learned so much. Love and miss you!
Becca said…
You always write such wonderful things! I love reading them.

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